A few days ago I had an awesome business coaching conversation with one fabulous marketing badass: Amber McLean of Naked Women’s Business. I LOVE coaching so much, because it always helps take you to the next level. No matter how much “work” you do on your mindset and beliefs (and I tell you I’ve done a load of it!) there’s always more growth and learning you can do. That’s why I continue to invest in getting coaching for myself from all sorts of different coaches every year.
Well this conversation helped me get clear on a little black and white thinking I’ve been doing for so long it became invisible to me. Blind spot alert! So much of the unconscious programming we live by is downloaded into us when we are kids. Especially the stuff we learn by watching the dynamics around us as young babies.
Here’s my story (just my perceptions of the events) and how it impacted a few of my unconscious beliefs… By the way, this is not about blaming my childhood, or either of my parents. We know that everyone is just doing the best they can with their own resources and beliefs. I’m only telling some of my story in case it resonates with you and helps you realise some of your unconscious beliefs, as you reflect on your own stories.
I remember when I was a kid, my mum, sister and I used to run around the house tidying up when we heard our Dad coming in the driveway, in order to not get “in trouble” we had to have a clean, tidy house. At other times, I listened to my mother talk about how she used to be a singer and gave that up for us. Later when my parents were separating and my mother rediscovered her love of music and performing, my Dad would talk negatively about her and tease her for it…
So a few of the beliefs I created through witnessing those experiences were:
Singing and performing live is one of my greatest gifts and passions. Due to those unconscious beliefs I split myself in two. I have a “cleaned-up” version of myself, and sexy performing vixen version of myself. Under my performing alter-ego Kyla Sexton (my maiden name and a made-up first name) I wrote and released dance music songs with various producers and I performed at fancy corporate events and in nightclubs all over the world. Under my real name Kylie, I built my coaching business. Each side fulfilled different parts of my personality, and different needs. I am wildly passionate about both, and both fuel my soul in different ways.
Even though with my coaching hat on I know that people don’t need “parts” to operate, and it’s best to be a whole, integrated human being, I just couldn’t see how these two parts of myself could possibly work together. Though I am very happy to not be singing in nightclubs anymore, (you get a bit past it after nearly 10 years!) I fully considered stopping writing music and singing altogether since I became a Mum. See how those pesky limiting beliefs play out!
I didn’t intend to create two separate identities, it just kind of happened over time. Of course, different situations bring out different aspects of yourself, and it’s normal to moderate somewhat to the environment, like not swearing in front of children for instance, there’s a time and a place, but this became something else. I was not being true to myself, or fully authentic, by sacrificing something that I cared about so deeply.
Now, in this business coaching session Amber brought all this to my awareness and reminded me that I need to bring ALL of my gifts to bear to be fully successful and happy. I can’t just stuff down a part of myself in order to fit what I think people or “society” thinks is appropriate. No matter how happy I am with the other part of my life, there would be a bit of me missing… She also introduced me to Marie Forleo who is an uber-successful, quirky marketing and lifestyle coach for women, who is also an accomplished dancer and choreographer. She dances in fun, music videos in amongst her coaching, advice and inspiration. Awesome! Seeing her site, and how she presents herself in a fun, insightful, authentic and creative way was like a slap in the face and a drink of cool water after years in the desert. Aha! Finally a model of a woman who is being successful, forging her own quirky path and people love her for it! Hooray!
So, I want to prepare you for my own next stage transformation over the coming months as I integrate this new awareness and breakthrough into my business. You will see a bit more music, creativity, fun, and ooh even a little sexiness, as I bring my whole self to play with you! 🙂
If you do, I’d LOVE you to reflect on how my story may or may not be a metaphor for some of your own experiences.
If you’re curious, here’s some of my old dance music songs… and a few more of my live event photos… The last one below is a cover, all the rest I wrote with producers.
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“Having ongoing training is essential for our team and our business. It’s important to look after the people that look after others. Kylie has the experience, professionalism and knowledge to engage with our team and help them understand about human behaviour and why people do what they do. In the wellness and health industry it’s a different sales and service delivery and it’s imperative to keep on top of these understandings to perform at our best to help others. We couldn’t recommend Kylie high enough.”
I have worked with Kylie over many years. She has helped me as a Business Mindset Coach, as a motivational speaker for clients when I had my gyms with Vision and more recently at Flow Athletic. I bring her in to train my Personal Training teams in mindset, communication and how to coach our clients better and excel in our own personal mastery.
I highly recommend her work.